Wednesday, 20 January 2010

  • the "American's burden"

    Haitiferry

    Haitian Earthquake: over 200,000 casualties..
    the American government, French government, Red Cross Society, the UN... an alphabet soup of organizations pour in aid.

    But, does this aid in actuality help or hinder?

    Every time a catastrophe happens in a third world country, the US is usually one of the first countries to jump in and throw in some aid.  Some even alluded to making Haiti a 51st, considering its vicintiy.  These decades have seen a rise in the "American's burden" and consequently, modern imperialism--from taking over Iraq and now Haiti?  It is to a certain degree understandable that being in a superpower position prompts one to have a sense of call of duty to provide help when unfortunate events happen, however, in the long-run, is it really help? How can one stand up and stay up on its own when aid pours in almost immediately when a catastrophe occurs? Countries grow and become efficient and effective relative to their own contexts, often from these times of catastrophe, when they can really reflect on themselves as a country, rebuild, and make improvements from within. 

    I absolutely understand that wanting to provide immediate help when tragedies happen is almost part of human nature.  It's almost out of a sense of guilt--as if we feel "sinful" to be living luxuriously while thousands upon thousands are suffering.  We throw out aid to buy a sense of peace of mind for ourselves.  Or even in the ideal situations where all the intentions are purely good, less-than-good results can result for the so-called third world countries.

    Throwing aid at Haiti creates a relationship of dependency--arguably analogous to imperialism.  It makes the country perpetually weak and dependent on foreign help whenever there is trouble. 

    How can one stand up and stay up on its own if not given the opportunity to?

Wednesday, 11 November 2009

  • a special someone whose not your special someone

    Do you have that friend that just makes you happy after you talk to him/her?

    We can be talking about the most random things like the weather, swine flu, and drunkenness.  We talk about all sorts of things.  But I feel so much lighter and happier after our conversations; especially today. 

    Today I felt horrible.  It's pouring rain and storming outside.  My feet have been soaked for hours.  I listen to my boss talk about a new network marketing business that he's embarking on.  I come back to my room and go on the computer.  The first thing I see is that the German soccer goalie killed himself.  Someone so successful yet suffered from depression; and ultimately fell victim to it.

    I felt lost.  Why try so hard with life?  If we ultimately all face the same end?  What difference does it make the way that you die?  What are accomplishments in life?  Making others' lives better?  How significant is that?  Does it really make a difference to better someone's life whose going to die anyway?  What matters after we die anyway?  Nothing.  Why do we try so hard to live everyday?--to get to work amidst a storm, getting that A in a class, joining all the "right" organizations, and living up to the ideal that shouts "success" like a blinking neon sign on a street at night. 

    What is the point to trying so hard, having that drive for success when one can die at any moment?

    What would you be doing right now if you knew you were going to die tomorrow?  How many of us would be doing the same exact things?  It just shows that we are deluding ourselves in a success-driven life.  We are not being true to ourselves.  What is the value of life if we cannot even be true to ourselves? 

    Then, what compounds my negative mood is my Critical Thinking class.  I had thought it would be an interesting philosophical class.  However, it turned out to be a meticulous bore; it is like learning grammar, important in way, but meaningless outside of application or context.  It made me feel like I'm wasting my life away.  What am I doing?  I didn't want to be there.  If I were dying the next day, I would not want to be wasting my time in that class.   And then, after class, I failed at making a "normal" facebook chat conversation with a person that I have an intellectual interest with.  It felt like signs of my failure in life in general. 

    What am I doing? It felt like I'm doing everything wrong.

    Then, after I got back from dinner with a friend,  I got on msn and saw my friend (the one one whom this post's title relates to) online.  So we talked.  I didn't spill out all of my frustrations to him or anything.  We just had random conversations about various topics.  I find that sometimes complaining about your problems doesn't really help anyone (that was I did with the "intellectual interest").  Anyway, after having an msn conversation with my friend just made me feel totally revived. 

    It just all feels right again.  Kinks happen; it's just all a part of life.  We've just to face adversity and not-so-great-times with a smiling face.  Don't let your enemy see you suffer.  Appreciate the little moments in life and everything will in the end work out for the best.  Everything happens for a reason and we've just got to look at the positive aspects and breathe in the goodness. 

    He is my special friend who makes me feel good.  I am glad we are just friends again.  Some people are meant for friendship not something beyond. 

Tuesday, 27 October 2009

  • He is right.

    Today, someone told me that I was un-chill.  It was one of those everyday comments that your friends casually make, but actually contains a lot of wisdom to it.  It was one of those random moments of enlightenment. 

    He is right.  Although I claim that the ideal state of mind is one of perfect neutrality and nothingness (in common terms, possibly described as being 'chill'), I barely behave up to my ideals.  I can often be overwhelmed with frustration and get uptight about things.  I have always thought that the invention of the clock was one that brought about the demise of humanity's spirituality.  Instead of 'just chillin' as some may put it, we are constantly calibrated to the clock--needing to go to work at 8, attend a meeting at 12, spend time with friends at 5, etc.  Not just work, but free time/down time to socialize with friends, etc. has to be booked in advance.  In this 'post-modern' era, our agendas have become more and more filled, with barely any room left for spontaneity. 

    Although a routine can help us organize ourselves and establish a regularity that lowers anxieties and stress, routines are also very easy to get caught up in.  Once we get caught up in a routinized life, what difference is it from living a life like a robot?  We become so task oriented that we are completely at a spiritual loss and the true sense of our human to human connectedness/community is cast aside.  We tend to get caught up and forget about what's truly more meaningful and important.

  • Bad omen?

    This morning, I decided to sleep in because I was really tired (bad night of sleep).  And I had a dream, "a-not-a-good dream".  I can still feel a chill when I think about it now.  I believe in the yin and yang for basically all things in life.  Whenever something good lasts for a time, I can feel trouble lining up at the door way, waiting to step back into my life.  My past continues to haunt me.

    I feel that I've been through enough that nothing should upsurge fear in me anymore.  But I still do feel fear.  I can smell the imminent troubles as I walk through the cobblestones of my everyday life.  I turn a corner, I see a car of the same model, and I fear it's him.  I can feel his imminent presence.  He will return.  All is not over--it never is.  One can never restart life--"in life there are no retakes". 

    Memories are difficult to actively repress.  Because, the more you try to repress them, the more you're actually thinking about them; thus bringing them into brighter clarity.  It is usually best to leave it be; with apathy.  Until...something like a dream brings the memory back into preview and haunts you like an omnipotent monster. 

  • Society's Facade

    What is Society?  Society is a congregation of humans.  Humans are social creatures.  What do social creatures do?  Congregate and form groups.  Hence, when you put a group of eager and anxious 18 year-olds together, what do you get?—groups of students who are eager to call one another family and then the stranded wanders who don’t seem to belong.  Those who are most attempt at forming groups and becoming a part of society are those who are best at being superficial.  A “civilized” and “cultured” society is one that is built upon superficialities and buried insecurities. 

    To form groups, people conform.  Conformity is the most desired quality of society, while particular “unique” characteristics are worshipped as saints.  This is like when the gay person is oftentimes automatically popular.  Others gravitate to these people because they make an appearance of freedom (having come out of the closet, etc.).  Freedom is something that we all secretly seek while under the pressures of conformity.  Gays are almost like beacons of light, they are protectors and pursuers of a freedom that many are afraid to attempt but secretly yearn for. 

    When a group comes together, they consider members those who wish to participate.  Those who wish participate are usually average human beings who are social creatures and desire to be a part of a larger whole.  As social creatures, we largely identify ourselves by our group or classification—whether it be a nationality, religious belief, social standing, or some sort of membership in a group.  It is precisely this need to belong to something to identify with that, fraternities and sororities and the such, spring up on college campuses.  As a result of these insecurities, people conform to the established societal values to feel included.  Often, the concept of inclusion, comes with it, exclusion.  Forming group identity often includes designating outcasts and “out-groups” and to feel the sense of community and inclusion, members are often not hesitant to disown and renounce these outcasts.  It is all a façade.

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